"I try to check myself on those rough days," she revealed. "And say, 'Remember when you were on your knees asking and begging for this moment? Take it.'"

Meghan Overdeep
May 11, 2018

It was one of those nights.

It was 2 a.m and Today anchor Hoda Kotb was awake with her baby, Haley Joy. Her partner, Joel, was out of town and her dog, Blake, pooped on the floor and broke a picture frame. The dog was barking, the baby was crying, and the floor was covered in glass.

"You're just, like, sitting there and the world's exploding," she recently told her co-anchor Savannah Guthrie.

But that’s when Kotb a moment with God that changed her perspective entirely.

"I remember having a short conversation with God," she recalled. "And I remember saying, 'I would have begged you for this day.'"

Hoda said she reflected on the days before February 2017, when adopting Haley made her a mother at age 52, and how she would have longed for even the most challenging day with a child of her own.

"Like, this terrible day, I would have begged on my knees for. So I remember I just literally took one breath, put her in the playpen, cleaned up ... but I remembered, for a second, having that awareness," Kotb told Guthrie, in heartfelt conversation about motherhood at New York's Central Park Boathouse.

Kotb said that the rush of perspective she experienced that night has stuck with her, and she’s able to draw on it when being a mother isn’t all sunshine and roses.

"I try to check myself on those rough days," she revealed. "And say, 'Remember when you were on your knees asking and begging for this moment? Take it.'"

She said she would always remember the first time she held Haley, now 15 months old, in her arms.

"And I remember she fit," Kotb recalled. "That's all I remember. I remember thinking, 'I can't believe this fits like this.' It's like a puzzle piece that snapped in and now I'm me."